Ok so this entry is purely a rant.

I was sick for almost two weeks with a laryngitis/cold/flu thingie which made my waking/sleeping/breathing hours agony. So now it's over, I'm well again. Bully for me! Now my internal clock is out of whack b/c of dozing during the day with my illness. I tossed and turned in my bed yesterday until 5:37a. As fatigued as I am right now I wish I could sleep but my body sadistically denies me the ability. I could take a sleep aid but I need to "devote a full 8 hours of sleep before becoming active again".

I need to sleep or I'll go crazy and rip off my secretary's head for giving me my messages. Or even more embarassing - burst into tears. I had a temp job which required me to get up at 4:30a to get into the office by 7a. After a couple months of sleep depravation I became so frusterated at my inability to find the energy for anything outside of work, I freaked out crying and came the closest I have ever been to a nervous breakdown. I couldn't quit the job and was working 12 hour days to pay the bills. Eventually my Mother (whom I don't deserve) started to pick up after me when I'd walk in all zombie like from a day at work.

I'm not telling you the above to get your pity vote. I don't deserve it, I guess I just needed to vent. If you have any suggestions for helping me knock myself out at a decent hour I'd appreciate it.